♥ Sunday, June 8, 2008
just back from the survival camp.i almost died on friday night. but i manage to survive.7 june 2008yesterday wake up at 11 plus. aunt come my hse tgt with my cousins.prepare and off we go.took bus to jurong interchange went to eat, then after that i got andrea to call me. along the way to the train i have a small chat with andrea.(: thks alot.then on the way to suntec again my tears flow. but this time round luckily my mum did not saw it.reach the bookfair le. totally no mood..but i saw till yifang. have a small chat with her.hahas(: just shop ard lor.then irene at ard 10plus call me. i chat with her till the mrt there then hang le hahas. reach home at 12 bath rest eat a cup of instant noodles and slp....totally no mood for the day..6 june 2008wake up at 11 plus? have a small chat with shimin and ray.doing our last planning for our movies.then i rush to bath and meet shimin at bus 99.everyone was there waiting for us.sry guys to make you all waited for us.when we reach habourfront, saw wahida and weihoon.. 1st things 1st we went to buy our tickets 1st. wah!SUPER DUPER long queeue.then after that me and ray acc tecky to look for his cadigan.while the rest went to habour de mac and wait for us there. try out quite a number of shops but stil don't have. so we decided to try out on this com whereby you just type out the things you need and you will know which shop to get it. then while tecky is trying, me and ray was chit-chatting over something.=X cant say out de. and soon we left off to mac and look for them get shimin to acc me to buy and eat my meals.soon, time up we all quickly rush off to the movie thearte. the movie was funny very funny! after the movie me and shimin keep repeating the actions of the panda does.and keep laughing away.. and just good i get to see louis and co. didn't say hi to him as is so ps=x then after that we went off to the 3rd storey of the building they went arcade while we was slacking ard.. then weihoon and wahida went off 1st soon we also went off le after awhile.me and shimin took bus back to jurong. then on the way back i msg ray and ask them where they going he say they going imm.so me and shimin went to look for them. so angry la they making us walking here and there. urghh!! by the time i saw them, i alredy have to go. cause i nid to meet my parents for dinner. then after that send shimin home. when i reach home, i call HER up. she then finally decided to tell me the truth.and after knowing the truth tragic comes.....once i know the truth, i get andrea to call me up.because she is the ONLY ONE LEFT. that i can go to. if i get shimin or the peeps in my class things will get worser.because they all are from my class and if i were to tell them, they will heng nan zuo ren. i cried through the phone.then michelle and shimin call in and still i'm still crying then jiajie call in i stop le..at first i did do some chatting with them and suddenly i cried again this time rd. at first only michelle and andrea know. cause i couldnt take it le. then after that i start crying till very badly. then the four of them keep calling my name through the phone. NO RESPOND GIVEN! still they don't give up keep calling and calling. at that point of moment, i was so weak till i almost fainted and i could stop my breathing anytime. is was a very cricital moment for me.and because of this matter, shimin took a cab down to my hse. andrea did not slp. michelle slp at 3. jiajie was very worry for me.i myself know that if more of my peeps knw, they confirm will be like the 4 of them.TO HIM:
yes! i'm indeed sensative.i'm indeed childish. because of YOU msging HER i dun want to talk to her. and i ALSO BLOCK THE TWO OF YOU TO KNOW EACH AND OTHER!!I'M A WALL! by saying all these, what benefits will you have??did you ever think why would i wanna do all this? is because i do care for you. i didn't nothing. and i didn't nothing wrong. who are you to say that i m blocking the two of you to know each and other?? and do you know the whole story behind it? you DON'T KNOW! you know nothing and you just say things that hurt me. isiz fair to me? you can choose not to care about i feel but must you say me say till like that this?? you like her is your problem.you wanna msg her can i stop you?? i can do nothing to it. but why? why must you say me say till like this?? you take my trust and friendship for granted! since you say that you have enough of me so am i! you duno treasure this friendship is okays with me! you wanna break friendship is also ok with me! because you already say me say till like this no point saying so much. what you have done, is nothing to you. but it leave a big cut in my heart and that is FOREVER! TO HER:
you claim saying that letting me know will scare that i might collapse.but even if i were to collapse i stil have you guys by my side.when you msg him and do all this thing did you ever though of me before? what you did is already overhead! i only say a hi to YJ and you are BLOWING UR TOP ON ME! you reflect what you have done to me. all this way i been trying my best helping you. i have been trusting you and yet this is how you repay me.and you still can even send me this kind of msg when you are in the wrong. you stil can go and tell shimin saying that I'M GIVING YOU ATTITUDE AND THAT WHY YOU GIVING ME THIS KIND OF ATTITUDE. YOU YOURSELF GO THINK! WHEN YOU BLOW UR TOP ON ME DID I UTTER A SINGLE WORD? WHEN I WANTED TO HELP DAPHNE TO TAKE NUMBER FRM __ WHAT YOU WENT TO SAY INFRONT OF THEM? AND STIL DID I UTTER A SINGLE WORD? AND WHEN YOU ARE GIVING ME ATTITUDE DID I UTTER A SINGLE WORD?? DID I?? DID I??who are you to send me this msg? who are you? you claim that you like him is only as a friend.but the fact is you urself say that you are only using him to forget ___. did you ever think that you always have this kind of attitude that makes us all piss off? and when did i say that he cant like others. he want to like you or whoever is also his problems. did i say that he cant?? go reflect on how i treat you and how you treat me back.
TO THE TWO OF YOU!
IF YOU TWO THINK THAT MAKING ME TILL LIKE THAT, AND MAKING THE TWO OF YOU TGT YOU TWO WILL BE HAPPY, GO AHEAD! MY BLESSINGS TO YOU GUYS.BUT I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW ALSO.BECAUSE OF THE THINGS YOU TWO DONE, MAKE ME ALMOST LOST MY LIFE! MAKE ME ALMOST GO TO THE HOSPITAL! I'M NOT BLAMING YOU GUYS I ALSO KNOW THAT I PARTLY HAVE WRONG.BUT I SEE NO WHERE I M WRONG. YOU TWO CHEATED MY FEELINGS, ONE AS A SISTER ANOTHER ONE AS A CLOSE FRIENDS.REMEMBER YOU GUYS ARE THE ONES WHO DOSEN'T TREASURE THE FRIENDSHIP.AND I THOUGH THAT THE TWO OF YOU WILL FEEL BAD ENOUGH THAT WILL CALL ME UP INSTEAD OF THAT IS NOT YOU GUYS. BUT IS ANOTHER BATCH OF MY FRIENDS.I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET THE HARM THAT YOU GUYS GIVEN ME THAT IS SIMPLY BECAUSE FOR THIS 16 YR I HAVE NEVER EVER EXPERIENCE BEFORE THINGS LIKE THAT.ALSO I DO KNOW THAT PEOPLE ARENT 100% PERFECT SO I M. I HAVE MY ATTITUDE SO YOU GUYS TOO. YOU TWO CAN CHOOSE TO IGNORE THIS POST! BECAUSE TO ME IT DOSENT MATTER ANYMORE. AND FROM THE DAY THAT I KNOW THE TRUTH, EVERYTHING THAT CONCERN ABT THE TWO OF YOU, DOSENT CONCERN TO ME ANYMORE! SO NO MATTER WHAT DECISION THAT YOU GUYS MAKE I WILL GIVE MY FULLEST SUPPORT TO IT! AND THKS FOR MAKING ME TO HAVE A DAMM FCUKING PLEASANT MEMORY!
I WOULD LIKE TO ALSO APOLOGISE AND THKS MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS TO MAKE THEM FOR BEING SO WORRY FOR ME! TO ME I ALWAYS BELIEVE THAT FRIENDS THAT MET EACH AND OTHER ARE FATE.BUT IF THEY DOSENT TREASURE THE FRIENDSHIP THAT IS WITHIN ME AND THEM. SO BE IT! THINGS WOULD COME THIS FAR NOBODY WANTS IT. AND ALSO TO THE TWO OF YOU LOSING THE TWO OF YOU I ALSO VERY SAD. WHETHER YOU GUYS BELIEVE IT ANOT IS YOU GUYS PROBLEMS. EVERYTHING THAT HAPPEN TO ME ONLY SHIMIN KNOW. SHE IS THE ONLY WANTS WHO KNOW WHATS I M THINKING. THAT ALL I GOTTA SAY! NO POINT EXPLAINING SO MUCH WHEN NO ONES BELIEVES! 5 june 2008wake up at 8 plus,just to go for an interview that GR intro us.so funny can? when i was abt to leave the hse, shimin call me and say that she is at my doorstep.to my surprise michelle is here toos(: get my things and soon we rush off to the interchange to meet 5 of them. khenghong jiajie junqiang ray and apple. meet dao them le. took a train and rush down.at first GR told us was to alight at bedok how we knw we tk the train all the way to expo.! de..then after that we took a cab in as it is very inside so we took a cab in. we split into 3 taxi.me,GR,jiajie one taxi. shimin,michelle,apple second taxi. ray khenghong and junqiang third taxi. as our taxi duno how to go, so the taxi driver follow ray they all de taxi. our taxi driver like siao like that he is driving like crazy taxi. can?? but is fun la. then shimin they all 1 stuck at the traffic lights there. is quite far from the distance of the place that we wanna go. they talk to the taxi driver talk till they forget to get the receipt and end up they have to walk in and look for us and the $7 just gone like that. the rest of the 2 taxi managed to claim back their $.interview was fun. we go there dosent look like an interview but a meeting cause everyone was sitting ard the table and chit-chatting. and we even ask to intro ourself. sort of funny lol! we even say out our nicknames. after the interview same again sit taxi out and the $ can be claim by the company.so gd can? 1st time see ppl go interview still got free taxi sit.. hahas(:then after the interview went town. we went to far east plaza to eat our lunch. but before that we went to the hotel as we are looking for washroom. but the rest they are talkin like nobody business ahahs.photos are taken toos(:then soon wahida and diyana come looking for us soon tecky come. and so we proceed on to cine .as michelle wee and wahida wanna see super junior stuff. on the way there i saw gucci stuff. i stop and went in and see. wah! i saw til a bag i like it so much! dun care save $ and buy hahas.then when we walk till cine the shop is close.. haiis.waste energy!diao=.=" send michelle wee off to mrt station as she nid to go le. then we head down to ps. i GR shimin jiajie and junqiang went bunk. hahas at bunk we play audition ! lol! take turn and play.and aft that me shimin jiajie and junqiang and khenghong we went off 1st. cause we meeting DJ on the train hahas. was talking abt __ with DJ . and i realise that what he say indeed is true! very true! then after that shimin they all send me and junqiang to take bus. wah! me and junqiang saw smth that scare dio us and worst stil the bus kp break down lor. yupps that for the day!(:you ignore my feelings.you choose to make things this way.now are you happy? everything that you wanna see is all granted! i have enough! for 2 month and 5 days. i been touring myself. STOP! AND I WILL END EVERYTHING!THE THINGS YOU WANNA TO SEE AND HAPPEN HAS ALREADY HAPPEN! I GRANTED YOU! OK I HAVE ENOUGH! BYE!
story end-ed. 12:17 AM
Cindy