♥ Thursday, June 12, 2008
URGHHH!!!!!!BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!
I'M BORED TO DEATH....
what to do?? haiis...
1 "so called" gd news to say through my blog??
err.. i have another blog.and the details of the blog will only be mine only personal things.*WAHAHA!!
now i'm staying put at my cousin hse.simply bec at home also nothing to do.
for this few days, i am just having mood swings. and is so bad can? yesterday before i even come to my cousin hse, i was at home the whole day.and yesterday my class peeps call me up. 1st was michelle.follow up jiajie. two of them only chat with me for awhile and they hang and go to slp le. bec they are working today at suntec, IT fair.hope everything go smoothly for them. soon shimin called. then apple kenny and last junde. five of us chatting over the phone. and yesterday that was the day where me and shimin laugh the most. been so long time since we laugh. because recently alot of problems occurs and is so irrating and frustating when the problem keep flashing through your mind.*URGH~ chat with them till two and i went off to chase my korean show. hello xiaojie.is a comedy drama. so funny. i did not slp through out the night just to chase this show and i watch till 9 in the morning and then went to get some slp and wake up at 1 plus. was viwawa-ing with my cousin all the way till 5 plus and i'm back to my show again. ETP people called. asking me whether i wanna make the jesery and it cost me $24. de is like freaking expensive.*SHOO!~ a bbq going on also and cost me $5. still considering all this stuff...
tuesday
i went to lot 1 and look for meifong tgt with shimin.
just gd went there to meet daddy and brother.
hahas. then apple called me. haiis dun wish to say le.. *sobsob
i almost went to commit sucide on that night.
i really almost do that.! shimin keep msging me what are you doing?
all i reply her was....gd bye tkcare.
i know i'm STUPID FOOLISH!
bec of a small matter i wanna do this.. but why isiz so hurtful? why?
you guys kp asking me not to think. i also wish that i won't go and think but...
THE PROBLEM KEEP FLASHING THROUGH MY MIND!!!
tell me how should i handle with all this problems? tell me... can someone tell me??
is so fucking irrating that all this problems are not solved.
as long as the problems are not solved, my everyday will be a misery 1.
what sin did i did in the past? why would i have all this problems? why am i as always the one who is suffering when i dun even want to??? why????
no ones knw the reasons. if i were to given a chance, i would rather choose not to come to this world. anyway, how i wish i have tons of money now!
i wanna go for a long long overseas trip.
i wanna go and have a break.
i guess that i am having serious heart problem. but i choose to ignore it.
i shall stop my blogging. going back to my comedy!
story end-ed. 1:53 AM
Cindy